Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God - Philippians 4:6
Why? Is it all part of becoming an adult? Of being a homeowner is more like it. I never seemed to have this problem until last year. Something will happen (that I can't control) and my stomach starts to turn and my heart races. Just like last night. Nothing big. We just have a drippy faucet in the shower. About a year ago my husband tightened a screw or something and fixed it, but it was late last night so he just shut off the hot water to the shower. Well, it got me to thinking of a leaking pipe (that goes to the outside) we have and all the pipes that we should replace soon. (No others are leaking, but it would be a good idea...you know?) All I can see is money dripping out of the faucets (A "perk" of living in town). If we had well water I probably wouldn't fret about it so.
Like I said, it's nothing I can do. But the anxiety (I guess is what you would call it) starts up. It took me about 4 hours to fall asleep last night. It seemed like the harder I tried to fall asleep the harder it was. Why was I in such a hurry to grow up? (haha) The fact that we need new vehicles, replace some pipes, more work on the garage apartment, the fact that we never seem to have the money, etc just got the better of me. I know we are to be anxious for nothing. That I need to give it all over to God. Why is it so hard? In my head I have given it over to God, but apparently I haven't or else I wouldn't get all worked up....right?
I guess I am sharing all of this because I need help. I need prayer. It's not worth getting all worked up (and I try not too....it seems to be an automatic response anymore). Please pray that I would have peace and rest in our Lord. That God would show me what he wants me to do.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this. It's just rambling I guess, but I felt I needed to share it. So....thanks for taking time out of your day to read about a struggle I am going through. Blessings to you and yours.