Thursday, September 13, 2012

Girls Won!

Miss SweetS joined our family on July 10th around 1:30 in the morning. She weighed 9 lbs 6 oz. (she beat the other children out by almost a whole pound!) My only baby to come in the middle of the night, but what a blessing! Sweet E, Little E, and Special K slept through the whole thing. Big T was the secondary birthing coach. He would time my contractions and hold my hand when Beloved had to step away for a minute. He also kept a sharp eye out for the midwife. It was so cute to watch him. He was like a first time father. ;-) It was so sweet.
Timing my contractions
All the children are in love with SweetS. Every morning they all pile into bed with me and fight over who gets to hold her first. She has stolen everyone's heart. I should also add that the girls won! There was a great debate in our home on which gender would win out. Looks like the girls are dominating the house! That's okay. Little E has enough energy to equal about 3 boys. :-)

One tired Mama and Baby Girl
*My Little Firecracker *
Beautiful Baby Girl

The Whole Crew

As long as my camera doesn't die on me I hope to be sharing lots of pictures. It's soccer season after all. And can you believe that Special K will be 3 next month?! Goes by way to fast.

Blessings to all!

Friday, June 22, 2012

3 Weeks and Counting

It's hard to believe that we are already under a month till we get to meet our newest blessing. In some ways time seems to fly right on by and in others.....well, it seems to drag on forever! :-) A year ago I found out I was pregnant (the day after Father's Day) and was so excited. Little did I know that less than a month later I would find out that we had lost that blessing. God's timing is amazing. Here we will be celebrating a new life a year after loosing one. Talk about a mixed bag of emotions to be going through!

As for this pregnancy in general, it has been much harder than my others. Just different things to deal with that I haven't dealt with before. I won't go into detail (save you from TMI) but I have been uncomfortable for the past month. Usually I can deal with the end of pregnancy pretty well. This time it hurts to stand, sit, lay down, etc. I just can't stay comfortable for very long. How I wish this little one would come even a week early, but I won't hold my breath. My boys were born on their due date (my oldest was born less than 6 hours before his due date and only because they gave me pitocin) and both girls were 5 days  (or so) late. 

Anyway, I sit here typing when I should be sleeping because Beloved is about an hour away with the boys at a father/son camp out with others from church. Even though he tends to "hog" the bed, it's hard to sleep when he isn't here. Just us girls for the night. Which is nice too. Some ladies from church had a baby shower for our little one. What a blessing it was. After four children a lot of the basics are worn out. We now have plenty of towels, washcloths, onesies, soap and lotion to keep our little one clean and smelling good. :-) And plenty of rubber duckies for all the children to share. Hopefully the girls will sleep in a little in the morning and then we can get some breakfast and head out to purchase a few more things needed for the birth of our little one. Then it's back home for more spring (I mean summer) cleaning before this little one arrives.

Okay....I better get to bed. Even though it takes me 5 minutes to get out of bed in the morning I need to get some rest. It's going to be a while before I can sleep through an entire night again. Blessings to all!

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Life goes on....

I have looked at this blog for months now with just no inspiration to write anything. Life just started to happen and it seems that I just lost my motivation for a lot of things. And this blog (and our school one) was one of the things to be pushed to the side. If you look at the archives I went from having 3-5 posts a month to only 1 around July. July was the month when I new something was going wrong with my last pregnancy and the writing disappeared after that. I reread this post from the fall and cried all over again. 

This morning I remembered why I started this page. I started it so family and friends could keep up with the kiddos and see what the family was up to. I am going to do my best to get back to that place of sharing more. To start off with Beloved started a new job a month ago. Sadly it's in Downtown Columbus. The drive home is not very fun for him at all (especially this time of year with no air conditioning) . BUT.....he loves his job! It's a good environment and the company takes good care of their employees. I tease Beloved that he is going to get spoiled. :-) 

Big T is 8 1/2, Sweet is is 7, Little E is 5 (and ornery as ever), and Special K is 2 1/2 years old now. Special K is just as ornery as Little E. Always getting into trouble it seems. But she is so stinkin' cute you can't help but give her a big hug and kiss on those sweet chubby cheeks. :-) And as far as we know our little one (expected to make an appearance around July 13th...our 10th anniversary) is doing well. I feel so huge right now. Bigger than I have with any of the other pregnancies. 

The house is still up for sale. It will be a year in August. I was hoping to have it sold by now, but no such luck. I would be happy if someone would just come look at the place. We haven't even had one person come look yet. Really frustrating for a Mama. I am trying my best to keep the house in decent shape, but it's hard with 4 young children at home almost everyday. As most of you know it doesn't take long for a clean house to turn into a disaster..

Anyway, I just wanted to write a quick post to give everyone an update. I pray you all had a wonderful spring. It already feels like summer here with 90s over the weekend and no air conditioning in this house! Blessings to you and yours. <3

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

End of the year...

I can honestly say that I will not miss 2011. We had good times, but we had so many ups and downs I am ready for the start of a new year. I just wanted to let you all know that we are doing fine. We have a lot going on. Somethings I want to talk about but can't yet. And then there are somethings that I can talk about but they need to wait. All I can say is...the waiting game is no fun.  So anyway, I pray you are all having a wonderful December and I hope to be able to update you all very soon!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Happy Birthday Special K!

It's a very special day. Special K is now two years old! It's amazing how fast two years fly on by. She is my adorable, sweet, and lovable baby girl. I am so blessed to be her Mama. = )

Minutes old...

About a week (maybe two) old

1 year old

2 years old

Monday, October 24, 2011


I have been struggling with whether or not to write this. Since I decided to write something I have been struggling with what to write. Most people know that I had a miscarriage a couple of months ago. At first the pregnancy seemed to be going just fine, but there was always something. Some feeling that I had that things weren't the way they should be. After a few weeks I went in and had an ultrasound. All I can say is it's pure torture to have your ultrasound done on a Thursday and have to wait till Monday for the results.

Anyway, the ultrasound confirmed my suspicions. Even though I felt like something wasn't right it didn't make it any easier. I would have been ten weeks a couple of days after the miscarriage. And I know people meant well, but a lot of people just made things worse. My emotions were all over the place. I never really got a chance to grieve. I felt forced to push through and just move on with life. I know I needed to take time to grieve. Time to cry and cry till I had no more tears. I had a very good friend tell me that I needed to do that. That it actually helps to heal to just have a physical release of all things emotional and physical. I should have listened to her, but I truly never had the time. I had a family to take care of and I am okay I guess. I have times (weeks in between) where something just triggers a complete emotional breakdown.

And this brings me to the real reason I am writing this. Children. My children. Your children. Please....please....please.... if there has been a loss in your family (grandparent, parent, aunt, uncle, baby, cousin, sibling, etc) make sure your children grieve if they need to. My boys seemed to just move on with life. No big deal. Big T doesn't ever mention the baby. Little E will say things like, "the baby died. The baby is with Jesus." But that is about it. Sweet E on the other hand is a completely different story. She took the miscarriage almost as hard as I did. And I thought she was fine....until today

Boy, do I feel like a horrible parent. Tonight during the evening church service we came across a picture Sweet E drew a month or so ago. It was a picture of a baby, Jesus, and a heart with a cross and Heaven written in the middle of it. She drew it for our baby. Tears immediately came to my eyes. I hugged her and thanked her for the picture. Sweet E got a little teary eyed too and I thought that was it. Next thing I know she bursts into tears in the middle of church. I took her out in the hallway to hold her and talk to her. She just kept crying and crying and crying. Oh how my heart ached for my baby girl. She has such a tender heart. I ended up just holding her and having her tell me what she was feeling. How? How did I not do this sooner? She doesn't understand death and loss. She needed me to tell her it was okay to cry. To grieve. I feel like I deprived her of true healing. 

After church she couldn't stop crying. She sobbed the whole way home. I dropped off Beloved, Big T, Little E, and Special K at home for dinner. I took Sweet E and we just went to W@lMart to pick up frozen asparagus. I know it sounds silly, but it was just spending time with her and letting her know that everything will be okay. Reassuring her that the Lord will help us through. That we WILL heal from this but we will never be the same. But we will heal. We will. 

Before we made it to the store I stopped to put a few dollars of gas in the tank. As I was coming to the gas station Sweet E, in tears, said, "Mama, I think my heart is broken." Of course, hearing that just broke my heart. So please, let your children grieve. Tell them it's okay to cry. To talk about what happened. I held a lot back after the miscarriage and apparently Sweet E tried to do the same thing. 

So, I know this post isn't eloquent or a life changing. But I just felt I needed to write this down. To share a little of what our family is going through. And please..(don't take offense to what I am going to write.) if you have friends or family that loose a child (through miscarriage, illness, accident, etc.), think before you speak. Just say your sorry for their loss. Let them know you are there for them, but if you have never been through their situation don't try to help. We know you mean well, but the ones grieving don't take it that way. Don't tell me....."You already have x number of kids. So-and-So had it worse than you. So-and-so has been trying to have children and they don't have any. So you shouldn't be upset by loosing just one." Miscarriage doesn't involve just tissue. It's a BABY! And it hurts more than anyone (that hasn't been through it) can imagine. Just be there to give the women and families hugs and a shoulder to cry on. It takes just as long for the body to heal after a miscarriage as it does with carrying a baby for nine months and delivering. (maybe not as long for some, but it was for me) And to top off insult to injury...I (and other women) had to endure the pain of miscarrying (which is labor in a slightly milder form, the hormone changes, weight gain) and I don't have anything to show for it. I don't get to hold my little one in my arms. I don't get to snuggle with them while nursing. I don't get to kiss them good night. I don't get to see that first smile. I don't get to hear that first laugh

So once again....please allow yourself and your children to heal from miscarriage (or any other form of loss). And if you aren't the one dealing with loss...allow your friends/family to grieve. It's necessary to heal.

I, and my family, are resting in the knowledge that our little one is heaven with our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I just tell my little ones that God couldn't wait. He wanted our baby first. (How else do you explain miscarriage to a 4 year old?) If it wasn't for Jesus....well, I don't even want to think about how difficult the situation would be. I know God has a purpose for our family. He is always there for us. For me.......

Sunday, September 25, 2011

WonderMaps Review

I had the privilege to review WonderMaps by Bright Ideas (thanks to Timberdoodle). When I heard about the product I just jumped at the chance. Our curriculum for the year requires a LOT of maps and this is perfect. We are studying different countries and cultures all year long. 

So, you are probably wondering what is so special about the WonderMaps program. It's so special because you can customize it! It's so funny to see homeschooling mamas get excited over maps. When you are given the opportunity to make it match up with a lesson it's makes a person giddy. = ) There are over 350 maps to choose from (just to start with)! And it's not just the typical maps that you expect to find. Besides the maps of the world and the United States there are also historical and thematic maps (bible maps included.) 

Features (as listed in Timberdoodle)
WonderMaps is designed with easy-to-use layers that allow you to enjoy great customizable features with just a click. Select:
  • historical or modern-day maps
  • outline, reference, political, or topographical maps
  • black-and-white or color maps
  • features including:  names, borders, rivers, cities, physical features, and graticules
WonderMaps includes:
  • 60+ maps of the world
  • 60+ maps of the USA
  • 125 historical maps, including 25 biblical maps
  • The complete map sets from The Mystery of History vols. I–III and All American History vols. I & II

So, any map we need for a school lesson I have it right at my fingertips.  There have been a number of times when Special K gets into the school papers and marks all over them or rips them up. Now, if that would happen again I can quickly go into the WonderMaps program and make one just like it. You don't realize how happy that makes a Mama of four young children. :-) 

Even if you don't think you will use it much I would still suggest purchasing it. (Timberdoodle has it for $44.95) I would bet, that if you have it on hand, you will end up using it a lot more than you expected. Plus, it's fun to use!

This is a map I printed for my youngest  son. I could have added city names if I wanted . I could have also printed it without the state names. So much you can choose to do. 

We are studying Mexico this week so I printed out a map just for my oldest daugther. Once again I could have printed city names, rivers, the topography, color, etc. This one needed to be more plain though.

You should also sign up to get a free Timberdoodle catalog while you are there purchasing WonderMaps. (hint, hint) I also recommend liking Timberdoodle on FB to keep up with new products, reviews, and tidbits that they post. 

Legal Disclosure: As a member of Timberdoodle's Blogger Review Team I received a free copy of WonderMaps in exchange for a frank and unbiased review.